The Struggle

I am currently in the middle of the Yukon at an exploration camp. It is interesting as there is no service, no washrooms and the lunch room is a shack basically. There is Wi-Fi but it does cut out intermittently so I am pretty much disconnected from the world right now.

I seem to have aggravated my shoulder again this time and it is likely from trying to do too much. I am hopeful it isn’t anything too serious. Training has become a lot more difficult these last couple of weeks due to travel and limited space but I continue to do what I can, when I can because even a little is still progress.

As for work, I will be home on Friday but will be leaving either Tuesday or Wednesday of next week and will then be gone until September 11th. Once again, this will see me travelling to 4 different sites in the Yukon and then a fly in camp in Nunavut. With all the travel I do, you would think I would be used to training away from home but it is never easy and sometimes it feels almost impossible. This year, started out well but it is seeming more and more difficult as the year goes on. It might be the injuries or the inconsistent travel but I need to reset myself and try to refocus on doing what I can. Easier said than done sometimes.

Physical Therapy Next

So the continuing saga with my issues is I now scheduled to do a bone scan on my hips to see how much calcium buildup is in the joints. This procedure will happen on August 25th. From here, I am not sure what the next step will be but at least I am still moving forward. As far as the shoulder goes, I am to start physical therapy to see if I can strengthen the joint and avoid surgery which is a much better option I believe as the recovery can be quite a long time.

As for my training, I have to put off doing push-ups of any type as they may be causing more damage. So, to make up for this, I am doubling my sit-ups. It is not giving me the same benefit as doing push-ups but it is adding an extra challenge as that is a lot of sit-ups in a day. I also have to stop with my bench and will now shift focus to Da Mu Hsing as my second form. This year is definitely forcing me to adapt on the fly.

In between all of this, my work is going crazy right now so I will be away quite a bit for the next month or so. I am scheduled to be back on September 12th for the Kao Shi live class but will miss this week’s live class. This creates a challenge with trying to get in to see a physical therapist but I am home

Tendon Bad

It seems like my blogging in the last bit has been mostly about my injuries and this one will start with an update on my shoulder. I had an ultrasound done on the 31st and I am able to see my results online. It showed the following:

1) Subscapularis: Partial-thickness tear of the superior fibers measuring 10 x 8 mm.

2) Supraspinatus: Full-thickness, partial-width tear of the anterior/mid tendon measuring 17 x 15 mm.

3) Partial-thickness intrasubstance tear of the posterior tendon measuring 9 x 6 mm. Diffuse moderate tendinosis.

What does this mean? I don’t know yet but my doctor’s office phoned me to book an appointment right after the results were available. I am scheduled to meet him on Monday to go over the results and hopefully come up with next steps nit only for my shoulder but also my hip issues.

I am trying to remain positive but it is getting harder to do as it seems like it is one thing after another. I am also at a crossroads as how to accomplish some of my goals without causing more damage. I am going to have to evaluate this more now as I don’t think I have been doing myself any favors these past couple of months.

On a positive note , I may be able to make class on Monday depending on when I fly out out again. My work schedule is a bit crazy right now and I will be away for the next while except a couple of weekends in between. I will not be at the next live class as I will be away for work once again. The only day I know I will be home for sure is Saturday September 12th (the next live class after this one. I will give another update after my doctor’s appointment.

Form Grappling

So much going on and no time to fit it all in. That’s how I am feeling today as I may potentially be gone from this coming Saturday to Mid to late September minus a few Saturdays at home in between. This is not a surprise to me but it always affects so many aspects of my life. My family time, my projects at home and my training are what are at the forefront of my mind.

Working on the grappling sequence these last few days, I noticed that I felt more comfortable than I had in the past. Not comfortable in doing the sequence but applying them and moving between them. I am a big believer that this is due to my form reps that I have been putting in. I noticed this a bout a month ago when we were working with the big belly pads. While demonstrating a shovel punch, I really felt a strong connection with my six harmonies and my connection to the ground. I will have to ask Sihing Bauer how it felt to him.

Anyway, I think I am going to try and take my forms training further and see what affects it has on the other aspects of Kung Fu.

Out of Reach

I have been out of touch this last week and a bit as I have been working at some remote sites in the Yukon with my work days are pushing 15 to 16 hours. There is no service where I am at until I get back to the hotel and it is usually past 8 (9 Alberta time). Hence, I have not been able to view class and trying to keep up with blogs has been tough. I was supposed to be back but I am off to another site right away here and will be out of touch until later tonight again.

So I am working on what I can do which is push-ups (still modified), sit-ups and working through my form (although it is broken up due to space restrictions). I at least feel like I am making some progress and will continue this until I get back.

Speaking of that, I am supposed to be back in Whitehorse tomorrow and will then be driving back to Edmonton so hopefully be back by Saturday. That means I will be back next week so that will be good.

So Many Issues

This blog has a lot of information that I had to look up myself as I had no idea what it meant or how to treat it so some of this is directly from the internet.

So, this is what I know about my hip issue after my Ultrasound. Starting with the right side.

Gluteus Minimus Tendon: Mild tendinosis. Focally tender. No tear. Enthesopathic changes are noted. This means there is mild, chronic wear-and-tear or degeneration of the collagen fibers within the tendon, usually from repetitive use rather than a sudden injury. It is not a sudden, red, swollen "tendinitis," but rather a gradual fraying or weakening of the tissue. To recover from this, I have the following options.

1) Activity Modification: Temporarily avoiding the specific repetitive motions or heavy loading that triggers the focal pain. Already modifying but hard to modify walking, standing, and even sleeping.

2) Load Management: Gradually reintroducing movement to ensure the tendon adapts and grows stronger without being overloaded. Need to figure out how to do this so hopefully 3 below will help with this.

3) Physical Therapy: Utilizing targeted eccentric exercises (slow, controlled lengthening of the muscle-tendon unit) to help stimulate proper collagen remodeling. This is the path that will help the most I think and the one I plan to pursue.

Now the left side is where it gets interesting as I already have a shortened femoral neck which can cause pain and issues on both sides. This is an issue that will have to be dealt with seperately. There was no anterior joint effusion. Labrum sub optimally assessed sonographically. Which means the ultrasound was unable to provide a clear, conclusive view of the tissue to rule out a tear or degeneration. So I would need an MRI or something similar to view this. On top of this I also have the following:

1) Dystrophic mineralization is noted of the labrum. No paralabral cysts. This means that calcium has been deposited into damaged or degenerated tissue in the rim of fibrocartilage (the labrum) that lines my hip joint.

2) Direct-Rec Fem: Intrasubstance calcification measuring up to 4 mm. No tear. Which means there is a small calcium deposit within the upper tendon of your quadriceps muscle (the rectus femoris), with no evidence of a tendon tear.

3) Gluteus Minimus Tendon: Mild tendinosis. No tear.

4) Gluteus Medius Tendon: Mild tendinosis. Focally tender. No tear.

So treatment for these would be the same as for the tendinosis above. For #1 it may involve arthroscopic surgery to remove the calcified deposits, repair the torn labrum, and reconstruct the tissue. For #2 it may involve ultrasound-guided needle therapies to break up the calcium. This is all speculation on my part for now, but I think next steps may be an MRI and a referral to an orthopedic specialist, It feels like a lot of things going wrong and I wish I would have looked into this sooner but at least I am working on it now. I will not be talking about my shoulder.

Back To Work

This has been a fairly good week for me. I am continuing to work on being able to do more full push-ups without causing any severe pain. I am able to do 10 consistently and can push up to 20. This may not seem like a lot but to me it is a massive amount.

I also found out that I will be leaving for work on Monday so last night was my last classes I will be in attendance except for Saturdays Kao Shi. I will also be = there for open training and then that will be it for a while. As of now, I don’t know when I will be back as of yet but it will be by July 31st as I have an ultrasound scheduled for my shoulder on that day.

Speaking of the ultrasound, I have one on my hips on Monday before I leave. I am hoping by early August, I will have an idea on what my next steps will be for both. What that means, I am unsure but at least it will be something.

Demo and Life

Yesterday was Canada day and I was able to perform in a demo outside of the banquet for the first time in quite a while. I wasn’t where I wanted to be physically but it still felt great to be part of it. I also would like to say great job by the rest of the team and also to the Dragon and our newest Lion Dance team.

My work situation is a little up in the air right now as there have been some coordination issues with my next project. This has led to me not knowing when I will leave next so it could be anytime soon or not for another couple of weeks. I normally have some idea of when I will leave but I also sometimes get asked 2 days before. This makes planning sometimes very hard to do or it leads to changing or cancelling plans sometimes.

The shoulder is feeling a bit better and I can do some more things with it but I am at a stage I don’t know how far I can push it. I have been careful with it and not tried to aggravate the injury. When I do push it a bit it seems okay but later or the next day I can feel it. The problem is I don’t know if it’s aggravating the injury or if it is just sore because I haven’t been using it. I have an ultrasound on the 31st so I think I will wait for that to see what it shows before pushing it to hard but I will continue to try to do more with it as well.

Working On the Dance

I am at a point with my shoulder where I start to feel I can push things a bit but then I am reminded that there is still something very wrong with it. So, although I am doing more, I still have to be aware of what I can and what I can’t or shouldn’t do.

One area I am focusing on and have been working closely with Sifu Brinker on is the Lion Dance. Most of our one-on-ones have been focused on this. We are discussing techniques, strategies and aspects within the dance to focus on. We have had some great conversations and I am trying to pass this on to our current and future Lion Dancers.

My main reason for this and I have stated it before; is the major benefits you can get from practicing your lion dancing. A good example came from Saturday’s open training where Sifu Brinker was explaining a technique in a form and it was so similar to the wave in the Lion Dance. Just by practicing this, you would be practicing a part in the form. Anyway, I think it is important and I am hoping to get healed enough soon to start working more on my own Lion Dancing but until then< I will try to help our current dancers as much as I can.

Moving Forward

First an update on my doctor’s appointment. I have an ultrasound on my hips on July 13th and my shoulder on July 31st.I don’t expect much from the one on my hips beyond what the x-ray shows but hopefully from there, I can get in to see an orthopedic specialist to figure out a plan forward. The shoulder one is more frustrating as it will be over 10 weeks from the injury to the Ultrasound. And then there is still what the next steps are. However, I am trying not to dwell on it and continue to move forward.

I feel like as a team this year, we have quite a few members struggling with some fairly significant injuries. In the past I have sometimes not done as much as I should because of an injury but this year I am modifying what I do so I can continue to work on things.

Even in the past when I did modify it was to the extreme of eliminating certain things entirely. This time, I am still doing as many things as I can but smartly and safely. This includes still using weapons, still doing forms and still doing techniques. I am however unable to do my bench form due to the amount of strain it puts on my shoulder. However, I am still working on the sequence without the bench. Is it the same? No but it is allowing me to continue to work on it.

I still get frustrated sometimes as I can’t do certain things when I try them, but I am getting better at adapting and modifying how I do them so I can continue to work on it. It is not perfect but it is what I am able to do and what I will continue to do.

Numbers

I have a follow up appoitment with my doctor tomorrow to see what the next steps are. I will blog about this later but until then I am going to post my numbers to the end of May

Push-Ups and Sit-Ups - 14,980 (2,520 of the pish-ups are modified due to my shoulder)

KM's - 444

Sparring - 174

Lao Gar - 245

Bench - 60 (have not been able to do since injury - still working on the footwork but not counting these reps)

Blog -14

AOK - 387

An Answer Hopefully.

I finally was able to see a doctor about my hips and shoulder. Of course, the first thing that was scheduled was x rays. I didn’t thin k this would show anything but it was the first step he said and we would then go from there to an ultrasound most likely. I received my results yesterday and the results were eye opening to say the least.

First the shoulder, not much to report there except some mild osteoarthritis in the AC joint. Not surprised by this but it doesn’t explain my sudden problems so waiting for follow up with the doctor for next steps here as it is still painful and nit right. The hips are where it gets interesting. The thing that stands out here is I have a shortened left femoral neck which is either congenital or posttraumatic and it could be either as I did some things when I was younger that could have damaged it (involved a springboard and a hard gym floor).

To be honest, I had no idea what this was so I had to look it up. The main symptoms are limping, pain and limited mobility. The pain can radiate down to the knee and it worsens with repetitive exercises. It also weakens the hip abductor along with the hip joint itself. A shortening of 5mm or more is associated with inferior hip function and chronic pain. Pretty much everything that I am feeling is here.

The treatment at this point is unknown as I will have to follow up with an orthopedic specialist and see what my options are. There may be physical therapy options, orthopedic devices or in extreme cases, surgery. I have no idea where I am at and what my options are, but at least I feel like I am finally on a path to getting some kind of a solution at least.

Arrggg!!

I have been feeling extremely frustrated this last week and a bit because of the situation I find myself in. I did enter the Tiger Challenge in both hand and weapon forms and had been putting a lot of time in to preparing for this. And then I hurt my shoulder and had to withdraw from competing as I cannot even do the opening bow without causing some pain and the bench is a complete no go.

There are other parts that are frustrating as well as I had to modify my push-ups and am now only able to do them against a wall mostly one handed. This is not ideal as I was getting a lot of benefits from doing full push-ups. I know that I am going to lose strength and some core stability but I also need to be smart about this hence the modifications I need to make. My push-up numbers now have an asterisk’s beside them however.

I am still practicing my hand form, but the hand motions have to be slow and controlled and stay closer to my body to prevent aggravating my shoulder. I am able to do the footwork with my weapon form but there is no weapon involved. All my other requirements are still being done with maybe some minor modifications here and there.

I have a doctors appointment on Thursday and we will see where I go after that.

Shoulder?

I have done something to my shoulder and I am not sure what this will lead to. I have been having issues for a while now but something finally seemed to give on Monday. I wasn’t doing anything dramatic or strenuous at the time but it was painful and I could not use my arm without a lot of pain. Since then I have been taking ibuprofen and icing it and that has helped a lot.

The scary thing to me is it feels better most of the time now but it also feels wrong at the same time if you know what I mean. It still has the underlying pain that comes back not as bad but still there. I have to do something now so I have booked an appointment for next week when I am home and we will see where it goes from there.

I keep getting caught in doing things I know I probably shouldn.t because it seems fine to me. So now I have to figure out what I can do safely, what I can do but aren’t because I am being over protective and what I should absolutely avoid. This is my struggle right now. Bright spot is I get to work on one arm (mostly) pushups.

In the Lion

I had the opportunity to do a Lion Dance at the Onoway Elementary School on Thursday of last week and it was awesome. I tend to forget how much I enjoy them as I don’t do them as often as I would like to or in fact as often as I should anymore.

There are some things that I became aware of during the practice and the performance.

1) My cardio and stamina are not where I would like them to be at to perform a good lion dance.

2) We had taped the string for the eyes, and I found it a lot easier to use them.

3) The drumming speed was easier to follow I found although I did go off a few times during the dance.

4) I would like to work more on my crispness and movements especially as the dance went on as they started to lack, I feel.

Overall it was a great experience and I am hoping to do some more this year. The dance itself felt much better than the practice the night before did so I feel improvements will happen quickly as long as I keep at this. Also it was a unique pairing as it was myself who is one of the longest serving lion dancers with one of our newest ones, Todai Emma Ferris.p/>

Sleep, Who Needs It?

I have been doing a lot of research on sleeping lately because I know I don’t get enough sleep. I spend a lot of time away from home in unfamiliar beds and I know I need to change some things.

Here is what I am going to try:

1) Bring my own pillow which will provide comfort and some familiarity.

2) Try blocking out light especially in the North where days are extremely long.

3) Try using White Noise to block out unfamiliar sounds.

4) Try setting the temperature lower to keep the room slightly cool.

5) Turn of devices and spend a few minutes reading to relax the mind.

6) Get regular exercise.

7) Limit caffeine especially in the evenings.

Some of these things I am doing already but I need to do more as my sleep away from home is horrible. I will also try some of these things at home because I can use improvement her as well.

Worse Before Better

So, while I was away, I was only able to practice my form in a small space so it was very broken up and there were a lot of adjustments that had to be made in order to keep going. My main focus was on position, stances and the technique itself. Flow was harder to work on but certain sections allowed for it. I was back at the Kwoon last night and was able to do full form reps again. To be honest, I felt terrible doing the first couple. Things felt off and the flow was lacking.

On my last couple of reps I decided to look at myself in the mirror to see what it looked like and it was better than it felt. A couple of moves felt horrible but when I glanced in the mirror, they looked better than I had hoped or even expected.

This has got me thinking about my forms this year. I feel like they have gotten worse instead of better because I am really focusing on the moves and body alignment. This has led to some second guessing and some off-balance parts in the form. I know that it has to get worse before it can get better as I used to just go through the motions in the form. Now I am analyzing all my forms with the same eye for detail I am using with Lao Gar and it is helping but also making things worse in them as well. I will continue to see how this feeling progresses through the year and I can look back at videos from the start to now as well.

Source of Inspiration

All I can report this week is that I am still carrying on. Being away has always been the hardest for me. The hardest to keep practicing, the hardest to find motivation and the hardest to stay inspired.

This has been more of an issue in the past but I am doing better this year. I think part of this (or most likely, a lot of this) has to do with my one-on-ones. They have kept me practicing so I have questions I can ask during them instead of saying I don’t really have much this week. In fact, I usually run out of time before I can ask them all.

With that being said, I continue to practice while away and I continue to make notes so I can ask questions when I get the opportunity. So far so good and I am planning to continue as the year goes on. I will post a blog about this next time I am away so I can keep my focus on it.

Wasted Opportunity

I have been thinking about the assignment Sifu Rybak has asked us to complete at class on Saturday. What I have been thinking about is how much thought I put into this assignment last year because I did not make a note anywhere to remind myself what it was I wrote down. This means I did not utilize this tool and it was an opportunity lost.

We were tasked with writing down what we wrote last year again and to write down something new this year. I have an answer already in my mind but this year I will be writing it in my notebook so I can keep it on front of me and use it as a constant reminder going forward.

On another note, I will not be in class in person on the 18th so I will be posting my Beta forms in the Kao Shi group. I have them already but was just waiting until closer to the date to post them.

The Power of Video

I am leaving for work once again this Friday and will be gone for 2 weeks. This means I will not be at our next live class or open training. I tried to change it but in my line of work, I have to go when they need me. This means I will not be there to present my Beta versions of my forms.

To solve this, I will post videos of my forms online. This would have caused me some anxiety in the past but not this year. The reason is pretty simple. One of my goals this year is to video my forms every month to track my progress. So, I already have videos of my hand form and weapon form that I took at the end of March. However, I will be taking new videos this week just so it is a better representation of where I am at.

I have found the videos extremely helpful and also very humbling. They have been a great tool for me so far and one I will continue to use not only because it is one of my personal requirements, but they although for easier self evaluation. As I do the form and something feels off, the video actually shows what I feel.

The Lion Dance

One of my focuses for this year is the Lion Dance. I have been involved with working with the lion dance for quite a few years now and I performed one dance last year but I have not actually worked on my own performance.

I believe this has actually been a mistake on my part as I have forgot what the lion dance actually does for me. I know the obvious ones like stamina, conditioning, strength, footwork, stances, balance and so many more things. What I actually have lost is what it did for me mentally. It made my training something that I looked forward to and didn’t feel like it was an something I had to do.

So where does that put me right now. Specifically, I have been talking with sifu Brinker in One-on Ones about the lion dance. I am also working on my own technique in the lion dance which specifically refers to my stepping and my movements and alignment with the lion. My goal is to improve myself which will only improve my Kung Fu as a natural product of this work.

Where this takes me, I am not worried about as the goal for me is only improvement. I have only realized that I need to improve my own skills which will only help with the evolution of the lion dance within the school. Another thing I am working on is my own drumming. This is more of a struggle for me as I can hear the drum and recognize the patterns, I am not musically inclined so this will be a bigger challenge. However, I am committed to work on it and it may take some time but I know I won’t get better if I don’t attempt it.

Exhausted

It has been an off week for me as I got sick while I was away for work but wasn’t able to really slow down a lot as I was on a project solo. It wasn’t anything to bad just a head cold with some stuffiness. The biggest issue was I couldn’t sleep very well and when I did get home, I was exhausted even though I was over the cold.

Just being down for three days set me back on where I need to be with my numbers and I will be playing catch up for a bit yet. This just goes to show why it is so important to keep on top of them as you never know what will happen.

I want to keep evaluating where I feel I am at and so far, I am okay. Some things are where they feel like they should be and some are slightly behind I feel. Even though, I have been on the team for 3 years now, this year I find I am really pushing myself as I really want to work on myself this year.

There are still some personal things that I also need to work on at home that contu=inualay challenge me and I need to find the balance with life and Kung Fu. The one live class a month is helping with this but I have other things that I need to keep front and center and work around these instead of the other way around. I am going to leave this here for now as it feels like a good place to end for me.

Where am I?

A quick look at my life this past couple of weeks working 12 hour days at a minimum.

Flight #1 – Edmonton to Yellowknife

Flight #2 – Yellowknife to Norman Wells

6 hour drive on an ice road to Deline

3 days in Deline

6 hour drive on ice road to Norman Wells

Flight #3 – Norman Wells to Yellowknife

Overnight in Yellowknife

Flight #4 – Yellowknife to Vancouver

Flight #5 – Vancouver to Whitehorse

9 days in Whitehorse

Flight #6 – Whitehorse to Inuvik

3 hour drive on ice road to Aklavik

2 days in Aklavik

3 hour drive on ice road back to Inuvik

Flight #7 – Inuvik to Edmonton

In between this I have been concentrating on push-ups, sit-ups, AOK’s and Km’s as those I can do quite easily. The form work is harder as I don’t typically have a lot of room although I have been working on small sections of 1 or 2 moves. I did manage to get in 4 full reps when I had some extra space for an hour once.

The other thing I have been focusing on is one-on-ones as they are helping me work on sections of my form and also help me stay grounded as to what I am doing. I am still trying to do 2 per week even with my schedule and so for I have maintained it. The thing about these, is they are actually helping me answer my own questions just by talking through them so that has been an interesting aspect. I have some things to work on hopefully his week before I book my next ones.

Just a quick update for where I am at.

Push-ups & Sit-ups

First thing I want to talk about was our first live class for Kao Shi. I thought for me personally it was a great class as it showed me where I was at and where I need to go. It was tough but I felt great after. Would i want to do it again? Probably but that is easy to say now.

This has led me to start to focus on my sit-ups and push-ups more as I was not happy with where I was at. As I mentioned at the online class, I am really focusing on these along with Km’s and AOK’s while I am away for work as I can fit these in no matter how little time or space I have (push-ups and sit-ups). I am also aware of my KM’s and am mindfully tracking them while using stairs and taking the long way to get somewhere. The acts of kindness are helping me focus on the people around me and how I interact with them (this one is harder to track as I make a mental note but don.t pull out my book right away so I forget some but that is okay).

One more thing I am focusing on is working on certain sections of my forms as again I only need a limited amount of space for this. It is going okay but I am struggling a bit to find enough time to dedicate to this with my long workdays. This sounds like an excuse when I read it back so I will make a conscious effort to dedicate more time to this starting today.

I will unfortunately still be gone during our next live class and will also miss open training. I do however plan to be on the livestream and will follow along and participate even if you wont be able to see me.

New Year, New Plan, New Attitude

I have made the decision to be part of the new Kao Shi program. This was not a decision I took lightly and it is something I thought about for quite some time. I ultimately decided it was best for me to continue to advance my training. My goals this year are focused on areas I know I need to improve and to take my training to the next level.

Another reason for joining is to help keep myself accountable by committing to something that I can’t hide from later. I need to be present even when away and I am tracking things as accurately as possible this year.

Personal Requirements:

1) Book a one on one once per week.

2) Video my hand form once per month to track progress.

3) Spend 1 night per month talking with my spouse, no phones, no TV, no outside distractions.

4) I want to adapt my knowledge of grappling to suit the Kung Fu system more. This is a difficult idea to try to formulate a plan too. It starts with me working more on my forms to move better and then adapt from there.

My forms this year are Lao Gar (hand) and Horse bench (weapon) with a secondary focus on Da Mu Hsing (hand).

For Me

I am writing this just for myself as I need to reset my mind. My emotions and stress levels have been through the roof these last couple of months and I need to let some things go as I cannot change the past. This is really easy to say but has not been very easy for me to do.

What do I do? This is a question that I have struggled with for some time now and I honestly still don’t have an answer. I do know, that I need to reach out and talk to people because holding on to it is not going to help.

The other thing I need to focus on is the future as that is something I can prepare for. How to prepare is also what I need to focus on. I need to be smarter than I have in the past and I am hoping that I remember this when the time comes. Hence I am writing this to remind myself of two very important things.

1) I cannot change the past no matter how hard I try and stressing about it will not make it different.

2) I can control what I do in the future as long as I plan and follow through with that plan.

Out of Sorts

I have been a bit out of sorts lately and have spent too much time in my own head it feels like. I have been gone since the 18th of January except for a couple days at home where I git to go to the Kwoon for 1 day at least. I need to refocus and reengage and I am starting by getting this blog out. I hope to have another one out later this week but I have some long days ahead so not sure when that will happen.

1,000 Thoughts

I found out this past week that I will be leaving for work a lot sooner than I thought I would. I was hoping to not leave until after the banquet but that is unfortunately not going to happen. I think the reason I am not looking forward to this is the fact I want to be involved more than I am able to especially the demo and the lion dance. I will do as much as I can when I am here as I always try to do and I will be utilizing zoom as well.

On another note, I have been spending a lot more time working on my forms lately. This has led to questions that I didn’t realize I had. The main reason is I am working on strengthening the connection between forms and my work on grappling and sparring. I’ve always known there was a connection but I am working on building and growing the connection.

I have also spent the last few weeks working on my overall fitness and strength. This is for two main reasons. 1) I did not feel I was at a place where I wanted to be with my conditioning. 2) I am hoping to strengthen my shoulder and hip to alleviate or lessen the pain. I have been smart about what I am doing and only doing things that strengthen and not cause more issues.

This blog was kind of all over the place but this is where my mind is at lately. I have had so many things going on with both work and with my personal life I need to refocus for a second. This blog is a way to do that as are the one on ones I have been booking lately. I am using them not only to ask questions about my training but also to just talk about where I am in my life. By just talking to someone it has helped even if the details are not shared.