Retrospect

Last years I Ho Chuan seemed a bit like a train wreck to me. There were a lot of things that I did not accomplish that I thought I should have. With that being said, it was also a great learning experience. I was unable to do certain things, and got frustrated very early. I continued to try to change what I was doing without having the desired effect, so I quit doing things. Once that stage had been reached, everything was easier again for a while. I then got frustrated with myself as I knew I could be doing more and I knew I needed to do more. The accountability to the team and myself was what got me through that rough spell. I started to push myself and focus on my requirements again. I was ready for Chinese New Year’s when it all came crashing down again. I found out about 6 weeks before that I would be in Toronto on that weekend and would miss the banquet. This was hard for me as it is one of my favorite times of the year. What made this decision even more difficult was that I would miss the promotion of someone who I have worked personally trained with for a long time. It is always great to see the progression of someone from a colored belt, to a Sihing, to a black belt as it inspires me to work harder and to improve myself which is the goal of the I Ho Chuan.

Just show up.

I have been feeling more motivated this last week than I have in quite a while. It is funny how the simplest thing can change your perspective. I had been feeling a disconnect from the team since they started practicing the lion dance. It is tough being on the outside but I made myself part of it by showing up to the practices and helping where I can. All you need to do to be part of something is just show up.

New Year

So it's a new year and looking back 2014 kind of sucked. It was a struggle for most of the year and I'm glad it is over. The break was nice as it allowed me to think about where I was at and where I wanted to be next week, next month and 1 year from now. I have to change what I am doing and when, but I now have goals for myself that are achievable and i have taken that all important first step.

Mental Game.

I must apologize for falling off the inter-earth for a while there. I am feeling quite a bit better physically lately but am struggling a bit mentally still. I am not sure how but I do feel a bit disconnected from the school and the team as the focus has been on home lately. We were fairly lucky with our accident and am just working on getting through that.

A picture is worth a thousand words.

My life has been very preoccupied since last Monday. I am posting some pictures of our vehicle so you can see for yourselves.

Perspective

I had planned on talking about the Tiger Challenge but was sidetracked by what happened on Monday. I was on my way to class with September in the vehicle when we hit a moose. The impact was hard enough to deploy the airbags. I feel very lucky that it wasn't worse and am thankful that September was not hurt worse considering it took out the passenger door right behind her. I may post pictures at some point.

Technology. Bahhh.

I am beginning to hate my phone. It has this feature that lets you know when you are supposed to do something all you have to do is program in a date and time and it will pop up with a message saying you need to do this. It can even be set to repeat every week at the same time. This way you will never miss that deadline again. Sounds flawless except for the fact it has a snooze button. I can’t do it right now but I will as soon as I can, so I hit snooze. After 5 or 6 times I hit dismiss and then forget until the next week and the cycle starts again. It’s time to start ignoring the technology and start building a habit. I assume you all know what my reminder in my phone is for.