Mental vs Physical.

I am not trying to be too negative with this post but it may feel like it.

I feel like I am lost right now. Kung Fu and more specifically the Kwoon has been a big part of my life for many years now. Even though I have been away for work a lot these past couple of years, it was there when I came back. I enjoyed spending time there and training with everyone. Now that training has moved online, I am essentially cut off. Due to internet restrictions up here, I am unable to attend any of the online classes and can only make about 30 minutes of the Black Belt class. Normal classes and the I Ho Chuan class are a no go for me.

I guess what it comes down too is where do I go from here and what can I do to help Silent river Kung Fu. To be honest, I don't have the answers as I have been gone for almost 7 weeks now. The world has changed a lot since I left for work and it is going to be different than how I remember. The big thing for me is to find out what I can do if anything and to do it to the best of my abilities. I believe the biggest challenge for me is that I felt like I had a place in the Kwoon and I was helping the students and that it turn was helping me. This sounds a bit selfish as I read it back and I was going to remove it but I am going to leave it in as it is important to me.

I know there are probably others out there who feel this sense of disconnect as me. I am simply writing this as I have said previously, my journals this year are going to be more focused on the mental aspect because the physical part is the easy one to fix.