Positive

Tomorrow is the Black Belt Grading day! Although there is a lot of anxiety and stress going into it, there is also a sense of relief. After working hard for the last two years preparing for this day, it will finally happen. I have had a lot of time to think about this over the past month as I have had to almost stop most of my training to try and recover from my concussion. I still have all the anxiety that I assume my teamates have but after tomorrow we will all know where we stand.I would like to share what I have been telling myself to keep myself calm. Remember to stay positive and know that I am where I am for a reason. Do the best that I can do with all the heart I have and I will be fine no matter what the outcome.

This Sucks!

The title says it all. Physically, this has been the worst three weeks I've had since I started training in Kung Fu. I did'nt want to make a big deal of this because I am not looking for sympathy, but I wanted people to know what was going on so they can watch out for signs themselves. I can't think of a better way to put this so here goes, I have a concussion. There has not been one day where I have not felt the effects in some way or another. Whether it be headaches, dizzines, nausea or some combination of the three. Then there is the emotional side of things. There are some days when you feel almost oaky to completely down because you know what you are capable of but that seems like a completely different person now. What I have learned from this is you have to change the way you do things and be smart about it. For the first week, I just thought it was a persistent headache (I get the regularly) and continued to do things as normal. When the symptons did not go away, thats when I went to the doctor. I should have been smarter and gone sooner because I probably did more damage in that first week. I have now modified how I do things but I still cant excert myself too much or for too long. This is what I need to do to get better so I have to accept it and eventually I will be back to where I was.

On a side note I would like to thank:
1) My wife for her help through this (she does not get enough recognition for what she does because without her, I would not be where I am today). Just wanted to put that out there.
2) Also the Furious 5 (well 4 because I can't count myself). You know who you are.
3) All the Sifu's I have talked to but especially Sifu Brinker as he pointed out the positives and reminded me what I have done over these last 2 years.

I am still training hard, just in a different way.