Trying To Get By

This has been an off week for me as I have been extremely busy with work. Actually, that is not the reason at all. I have been distracted by some things happening with my mom. Last year she had a heart attack and had to have 3 stents put in. Only 1 was successful so she has had some issues since then. She had to go for testing this last week and will get the results on Monday. She is scared as she doesn’t want to have to go for surgery again and I can’t blame her.

I have been trying to not dwell on it, but it keeps creeping back into my mind. I don’t know what I am exactly feeling but it is somewhere between fear and acceptance. She has been through a rough year and I sometimes wonder what more I can do. I know when the time comes, I will regret not trying harder so I do what I can now.

This kind of went down a dark road and this is more for myself to help me remember where I was at this point in my life.

The End But Not The End I Hope

This past weekend was the last of my Sanda Seminar and I am going to miss it. I learned a lot about myself in how I move and how I improved over the 6 weeks. The last class started the same with some footwork warmup drills and then moving into some takedown drills. I had the participants switch up partners because of a recent blog by Todai Ferris where she talked about the difference in working with a different partner. I think the change made it more challenging but also more rewarding for them.

I was also asked if they would do actual sparring in the seminar and the answer was no. It was something I had planned on maybe doing at the end but I didn’t think it was the best use of time. If you have 2 combatants and 5 judges, the rest of the participants are standing around and watching. They would have got something out of this but I think they got more out of actually doing something.

The drill we worked on was a shoot with a double leg takedown. This drill was great because it has footwork, centering, energy transfer, skeletal alignment and follow-through with commitment. Hopefully everyone saw the value of this technique and I will be at the next open training if anyone wants to ask questions or would like to work on some specifics.

The Week that I Wish Wasn't

It has been a rough few days for me and I have been not wanting to talk about it but I also want to talk about it.

I had to attend a funeral on Saturday for my Uncle. Then 2 days after on the 10th was the day my dad had passed away a few years ago. I tried to think off something else to right about but nothing was coming so I just figure this is what I needed to do. There is a unique relationship with this uncle and it was a native ceremony. I will expand on this in my next blog I think