Tournament

It was a good tournament again this year although that was what I expected. Even though I did not enter, I did help out and was a holder for a lot of peoples board breaking. Some of them were not successful but at the end of June, they will get another shot for their black belt test and this time I will be one of them.

Guilty

I am feeling guilty this week. We are having our annual school tournament this weekend and for the first time ever I will not be competing. There are a couple of reasons for this that I don't think should be discussed publiclyget into. After discussing my situation with Sifu Brinker, I decided it was better for me to not compete this year. Ever since then I have had this overwhelming feeling of guilt. The tournament is a huge opportunity to see how you perform under pressure and I think its important to participate and set an example for your fellow students. So the questions are;
1) Was I selfish for not entering and did I use my personal issues as an excuse to not compete?
2) Should I have entered and taken advantage of a huge opportunity that was available for me?
3) I wonder if its to late to try?

Motivation

I have been back for over a week now and yet I still don't feel back in the groove yet. My motivation is a little lacking right now but I need to get it up in a hurry as the Black Belt Test is coming soon.

Back

I got back from my holidays yesterday after flying all night. I decided to go to class last night instead of catching up on sleep and I’m glad I did. It was nice to be back and it was nice to see my “other” family again. I missed you guys but I’m back now.

Coming home

After being away for the past 3 weeks, we are finally comingf home today. It's been tough to keep up with my numbers especially with my injury. I had to keep the stitches in for 2 weeks. It will be good to get home and start to push the training again.