I am feeling guilty this week. We are having our annual school tournament this weekend and for the first time ever I will not be competing. There are a couple of reasons for this that I don't think should be discussed publiclyget into. After discussing my situation with Sifu Brinker, I decided it was better for me to not compete this year. Ever since then I have had this overwhelming feeling of guilt. The tournament is a huge opportunity to see how you perform under pressure and I think its important to participate and set an example for your fellow students. So the questions are;
1) Was I selfish for not entering and did I use my personal issues as an excuse to not compete?
2) Should I have entered and taken advantage of a huge opportunity that was available for me?
3) I wonder if its to late to try?
There are times when it's imperative to take care of you and it sounds like this is the time. That is also a powerful message to be shown as well: you and your well-being come first. A thought to consider, just because you're not competing, doesn't mean that you can't train like you are.
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