Sunday, May 3, 2020

When You Don't Feel Like Doing, What Should You Do.

I had aspirations that this year would be a lot less hectic than last year and hopefully I would be spending more time at home and the Kwoon. So far though, things have not gone to plan. We are 18 weeks into the year and I have been away for 12 of them so far. Once again it has been a struggle to find the space and tine to work on my forms and I have been getting down on myself lately. This has led to some frustration and a little anger at myself.

I have however, found something that helps. Strangest thing is it was I actually started to work on my form. I have been able to start to work through the sequence and am over half done the form in just 3 days. Something that I couldn't seem to do before is actually what was limiting me. Dont get me wrong as there are still challenges. My weapon choice this year is the spear and I am reduced to using a broomstick in a 6 x 6 space with only 8 foot ceilings. There are a few scuffs in the ceiling now but its plywood so quite resilient. I know that once I get home and use an actual spear it will be like starting all over again, but I will have the sequence down and hopefully be able to get the flow and intensity up to par soon.

This is a breakthrough moment I feel like and I my inspiration and commitment are the highest they have been in quite some time.

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